Thursday, September 19, 2013
Brody has become quite the big boy who will give everything a try and wants to you take him seriously but behind the scenes he still likes to be cuddled like a baby, suck his thumb, and hold on to pink nye nye. Over the last year he started to learn violin. I didn't think he would want to do it but he was actually very excited about it. He would come home and show me using a book how he holds his violin and when he finally got to bring it home I was in tears watching his concentration. We were one proud family to see him get up on stage and play in front of an audience. He is counting the days down to more lessons starting this October.
He has a lot in common with Coolidge but he is not as outdoorsy as him. This summer Brody enjoyed swimming and became quite a swimmer in a short period of time. He also became a diver. I'm not at all surprised because when he puts his mind to it he gets it done. His willingness to do it so fast motivated Coolidge and Coolidge also became a diver this summer. Brody doesn't like fishing like Coolidge but he did get a lot of time playing basketball. He's very athletic and enjoyed the trampoline parks this summer. Luckily there were no injuries for him. Now that we are home and back into the swing of school and weather changing I am reminded that Brody gets croup every September or October. It is amazing how immediately his lungs take on that change in germs and allergies and the cough begins and slowly becomes a bark as the night progresses. I don't want to rush them growing up until that night when I long for him to grow out of that. Its those sort of nights that I am glad I don't have a job to go to the next morning because I can't imagine getting up and taking my other son to school and then off to a job feeling like a zombie. My hat is off to working mother's.
Over the summer we spent a lot of time with family. Each summer is a little different and this one seemed to be all about cousins, aunts and grand parents. This year the boys chose not to celebrate their birthday at the park with some of their friends. Instead we went to Great Wolf Lodge with two of my sisters and their kids. They had a great time playing in the water park and solving their wizard mission with their new wands. I was exhausted but worth it to see how much fun they had.
We spent the longest amount of time in Seattle this year. We left the day after school finished and didn't come back until a week before school started. We were blessed with amazing weather in Seattle and made sure to do some of our favorite things to do and add some stuff we hadn't done. I just wish we could see them more than just once a year.
We are looking forward to some family visits this year. We were unable to take our annual trip to the Jersey Shore this last spring so we are excited to do that this spring. Looking forward to a new year full of fun and exciting things with my family. It truly is amazing that you never know where you life will take you. I spent last year just hoping the next day will be brighter and this year I look forward to what's coming my way.
I hope all my readers are doing well and if you are not trust me the storm may seem long and rough but it always passes.
Monday, August 12, 2013
I put myself on a new birth control pill to regulate my hormones, new vitamins to help balance my other chemicals, exercise, no caffeine, and talk to a therapist every week. I even tried accupressure massage and acupuncture. I'm a fighter but I have to admit I felt I was losing the battle. I never prayed so much in my life.
Waking up every morning with your heart racing is the worst way to start your day. I took meds for awhile to help get my day started. For some reason my anxiety was always high at 6 am like clock work. By 4 pm it was completely gone. I lived for 4pm because I knew I would feel like my normal self and like I could conquer the world. Then 6am wake up would remind me nope you are not normal you are full of anxiety and afraid of everything. Nobody understood and I cried a lot. Crying was nice because it made me feel better but bad because it made me feel weak.
Even now as I write this my eyes feel with tears because the pain is still very raw. I saw a therapist for a couple months and found this blog Anxiety no more that really helped me through this dark tunnel. I don't want to say I don't have anxiety because I do. I believe I've always been an anxious person. I feel my first panic attack and depression is what made me enter the dark tunnel. Sometimes I go back in but the good part of it is the tunnel isn't as scary and the not as dark anymore.
Knowing what I know now about myself and anxiety took the real fear out of it. It is still very uncomfortable but I know now that I can get through it. For a long time I carried my meds with me where ever I went. Now I feel secure in myself that I can handle it.
I'm telling my story because I know there are many people out there going through the same battle. I hate to put myself out there but I also am willing to do so in order for at least one person to feel they are not alone and give them some hope. Today is my birthday and last year I didn't even want to celebrate. This year I want to shout out I am 41 and I feel amazing! For those of you fighting this battle, trust me you will get through it. It will be hard and you will always remember those really hard times but they are there to help you get through the next war.
Friday, April 12, 2013
On a daily basis my boys fall and cut themselves so band aids are a must along with some sort of ointment spray. This city is filthy so just some sort of spray can be quite helpful. I always carry a cloth because it helps with many problems like cleaning a cut, to wiping hands after a fall or when your child gets sand thrown in his face. It is amazing how much a band aid makes my guys feel that life is much better.
The tissue is also a must because Coolidge is a lot like me and gets bloody noses. Can't tell you how many times we have been without them to realize a pack is a must.
The sun block is only in my bag in the summer months and is great because sometimes you are out and you have having such a great time that you don't want to leave. I love to sit in the shade but my boys run all over the place and a little guy with a sun burn come bed time sucks. Again that is a mistake happens once and then when you realize you don't have it you are running your kids to the drug store to get more or seeking out a parent at the playground who brought a bottle.
When my boys were in Strollers it was easy to have all of this in there at all times. Now that they are older I put all of these items in a large zip lock bag and carry it in my bag. I like them in a zip lock because it protects all of it from spilled drinks and it is easy to take out and give to my husband when it is his turn to take the boys out. These are simple little items that I tell you if you live in the city you will thank me later. If you have any other tricks that you wish to share please let me know I love new ideas.